Today is our last meeting before faire setup begins next Monday. I can’t believe it, honestly. I have so much to get done this week, I just hope I can manage it. I need to make over 100 badges for our vendors & that has top priority, honestly, even over getting the walls to our booth finished or anything else. I’m going to have a couple of long, boring days ahead of me.

Troy & I both need to go through our garb & see what we’re going to wear, what needs to be washed & get that done, so I’m not stuck wearing breeches instead of a skirt & such, you know? I don’t know why I do this to myself every year, if I’m just forgetful or I think that I have plenty of time left, maybe I just like the chaos of doing things this way. I have no idea, but I do know I won’t be online nearly as much for the next 3 weeks or so.

I feel like I’ve been running non-stop for days on end. I have, that’s probably why I’m tired. I have the house somewhat straightened out so it looks okay for when we’re gone. I got all of Beth’s toys picked up & put away, put her chair back where it belongs & loaded the dishwasher. I’m sure Rhi will do some cleaning while she’s here taking care of our pets, so I’m not going to worry about it a whole lot. It isn’t a huge mess, just looks like we’ve been busy for a few days.

I hope I sleep better than I did lat night, maybe knowing that I got everything done today that I tasked myself to get done will help. A sense of satisfaction is supposed to be a good sleeping pill or something like that, at any rate, I’m just about ready to see if it’s true. I’ll be back on Sunday sometime, I hope you all have a great weekend!

Our vendors spaces are quickly filling up, thankfully, since that’s how we afford to have faires from year to year. We have a lot of great entertainment this year, and I’m really looking forward to actually being able to see it this time, instead of just wishing I could like last year. I have all of the decorative stuff done on half of our panels & ill finish the rest this evening while I watch TV, which means that I can assemble them on Monday & everything will be ready to go.

We have a ton of new vendors, I hope I can find one selling garb, that isn’t charging the going rate of diamonds for a bodice. I did manage to find a couple of my old ones that fit me again, so at least I have those to wear, and will have 1 more if my friend can find it & get it back to me in time. I hope she can, because it’s one of my favorites that I’ve made over the years & I know it won’t fit her this year, she’s lost too much weight.

Well, I have stuff to get ready for our camping trip this weekend so I’d better eat something & get started on that.

I got all of the wall panels sewn, now all I need to do is the decorative stuff & then sew solid colored sheets on the back for stability & to hide my seams. I’m excited to see them hanging on the booth, along with all of our other awesome decor. We’ve decided that finishing our encampment is way more important at this point than stocking the booth, so we’re going to focus on that first & if we have money left, we’ll place an order. I’m looking forward to seeing that come to life, too, from the concept we all thought up last winter.

We’re going camping next weekend, so that pretty much let’s out the entire time for any sort of work to get done, and the weekend after that is the 4th. We’ll be getting Dave from the airport on Friday night, putting grommets in carpeting on Saturday, heading out of town on Sunday for the 4th & working at faire the rest of the week, on one thing or another, so we really do need to get that built this week, which means we’ll get my dad’s truck on Saturday sometime and drag everyone to the store on Sunday morning to buy what we need for it & then we’ll spend the day working on it, if Jason & Nate are back from camping by then.

I’m still working on my weight loss, still without motivation, but I haven’t given up, which is a good sign. I’m going to try a different method (not plan, just way of spending my points) and see if that helps. If not, I’ll be haunting fastestwaytoburnfat.org for tips.

I’ve stayed on program all day today & even have popcorn points left for later on. I’m very happy with myself, since this is the first Saturday in a long while that I have managed it. I even got a bit of sewing done in the past24 hours, like my purse organizer (hate it!) and a cute Tinkerbell checkbook cover (I bought Tink checks the other day). Tonight, after I finish up online, I’m taking my bags of fabric into the living room with my tape measure & scissors & cutting the lengths I need for the walls of our booth. We’ve agreed that we’ll skip the rood cover this time around & plan for one next year. That takes the stress off of me this time around, thankfully.

Tomorrow evening, I’ll start sewing them all together, until I have 8 panels that are about 5 feet wide & 7 feet tall. Then I’ll add some ribbon ties so we can shut the booth at night & all I’ll have left to do is put the white sheets on the back & dewing the casing at the top.

So no screwing around tonight dreaming of being skinny & reading apidexin reviews until I can’t see. I need to get started on this stuff, for sure! One month until setup. Eeek!

I haven’t spoken to Troy about my issues with the weight loss yet, I figured I’d wait until he was actually on his days off & wasn’t going to feel rushed or anything. Today was an extremely busy day, anyway, between the grocery shopping & having dinner out and all of that. I did manage to lose weight this week & am hopeful that I’m back on the right track again. I didn’t buy any junk when we got groceries & nothing sweet at all, since that stuff is proving to be a trigger for me. If I want something, I’ll buy a single serving & have that, then it isn’t in the house. I did decide to take today off & just have what I want & actually haven’t really overdone it or anything, so I’m feeling great about that & have a bit of hope that my weight loss story is indeed going to have a happy ending & that I’ll be able to reach my goal & keep it all off.

I don’t enjoy being the fat chick in the group & being tired, feeling ugly and just being all around miserable. I really like the person I’m becoming, a lot & can’t wait to finish my journey, no matter how long it takes me.

I still didn’t get any sewing done, does that surprise anyone at all? I never found time to get anything started, but really do hope to get the wall pieces cut & ready to go before too long. I need to get a tape measure first though, since I can’t find the one I had found after we moved. I’m terrible about losing things & you’d think I’d be better about it now that the house is cleaner & better organized, but not so. I’ve been slacking off with the house lately, too & have to stop it before everything gets out of control & I’m ashamed again. My whole life feels like it’s falling apart, between the eating & the housework. I have to get back in the mode I was in a year ago. I have to find a way back there before I fail at it all again.

I need to talk to Troy & see if he can help me get past this block I’m having, and help me find my way back again. I’m so easily distracted by the everyday anymore that I get lost in auto insurance reviews or something & forget what I’m supposed to be doing or putting in my mouth. I have no idea why.

I will get my sewing done this weekend, I have two long & lonely nights to get through this time around, so I have nothing to do & no excuses to make. I’ll buy a tape measure when we go shopping in the morning, so I can get them measured. I will get on top of my life this coming week, too.