I don’t know what’s gotten in to me, I’m just not getting anything done these days. I feel like I’ve been slacking off for the past two or three weeks, seriously. I don’t know why, I’m not entirely sure when it happened, I just know that I’m not getting things done like I was before. Maybe I need to install some video surveillance equipment just so I can look back on my days & see exactly what I have been doing instead.

I think it may have happened after Rhi moved back in, but I really don’t understand why. She doesn’t get in the way or stop me from getting things done, she isn’t even making extra messes or anything like that. I guess it may just be the change in the feeling of the house or something like that, but my goal for the next couple of weeks is to get back on track & in charge of the house & finances again. I don’t want the house to fall into complete chaos again, no matter what else goes on.

I love reading my Freecycle email everyday. I see a lot of interesting things on there sometimes. I often wonder what happened that someone bought an item & then never used it or ended up not needing it, you know? Sometimes there are some very amusing sets of things, like a baby crib, women’s clothing in a size 6, a lamb motor and a giant planter, but they want you to take everything. Those lots always get taken, and then I wonder what they did with the stuff they didn’t need.. did they put it back on Freecycle? Did they sell it? What?

I seem to be spending a lot of time these days worrying about my friends and their health. I have some friends who really need to take better care of themselves & they don’t seem to realize it or care or something. Some of them spend time talking about hoe worried they are about other people without ever looking at themselves & the fact that they either need to get with a weight loss program or find the best weight loss supplements or something, you know?

They all seem to be hyper concerned about everyone else’s lives & health but they can’t look in the mirror & see the changes they need to make for themselves & they certainly won’t listen to anyone when they say anything about it. It just aggravates me, I guess. I try very hard to take care of myself & to make sure the people I love are taken care of & it bothers me when people don’t do the same. It never used to, so I guess that’s just another one of the changes in me.

Everybody knows that flossing your teeth at least twice a day, right? I know that every time I go see my dentist he asks me if I’ve been flossing, and I have to tell him, “Yeah, sometimes” and you know, he knows I haven’t been very faithful about it, he can tell by the condition of my gums. It just seems like a complete hassle to me. I have to remember to do it in the first place, there there the whole complicated process that’s involved in flossing itself. It’s just awkward, and I never know if I’m doing it right or how to do it exactly.

Recently, we were given an opportunity to review a product made by Dentek. They’re called Fun Flossers, and we received a package of the kids floss products. They’re brightly colored & have a slight fruity flavor, and as far as I can tell, that’s really the only difference in that & the regular “adult” product. We all love them, and have started using them at least twice a day & we all feel tons better about our dental health now. I made a video about them:

For what my opinion is worth to you, I’ll be buying a package on Friday, (since we received this one for free & were compensated for writing a review) because we can’t seem to do without them now. So, if you & your family have a hard time flossing, or even if you just have a hard time getting your kids to floss, give them a try, I think you’ll like them.

In this time of economic hardship, who out there would turn down free groceries? A pasta company is giving away a grand prize of free groceries for a year or several other prizes of $200 mini grocery sprees. Run, don’t walk & sign up to win, I did!

The past few weeks have been rife with strange dreams. The other night I dreamed we were at this strange faire or festival, I’m not even sure what it was, only that we have never been there in my waking life. We were rushing around, trying to find our booth space & get everything set up, because we apparently had a very limited time that they gave us to be finished by (with most of these type events, you set up the day before it starts). After we got everything set up, we had to immediately get dressed in appropriate costumes, which for this event seemed to be of the fantasy variety. I couldn’t get my hair to do what I had planned, got angry & took off with Jason’s clippers. I shaved all of my hair off, using the excuse that I was “giving it a fresh start.”

Everyone was visibly shocked but I seemed to love it, so they left me alone about it & we opened up the booth. The even odder part was that we that weren’t selling the normal stuff or even anything that would fit into a fantasy or renaissance faire, and it wasn’t apparent while we were setting things up in the booth, it only struck me when a customer came up asking to buy Fenphedra and a bottle of vitamins. Believe it or not, that was the part that woke me up, but I did immediately reach for my head to make sure I still had hair!

You know, you’d think I had been lost many times in my life, the way that I’m so paranoid about it. Before we go anywhere that I’m unfamiliar with, even if it’s here in town, I have to look up a map to make sure I know where we’re going. If it’s out of town, I print a map & mark the directions so we don’t make any mistakes & end up lost. I really ought to invest in a Garmin GPS, it would save me a lot of time getting & printing out maps, honestly & probably save me a little bit of worry in the long run.

I really haven’t been lost that many times, though. Once in San Francisco, which was terrifying because it was like 5 in the morning, I was exhausted after driving about 15 hours & had never been there as a driving adult. As a matter of fact, it was the first time I’d ever driven in a big city, other than on the freeway. The next time I was lost was in East Los Angeles, which was scary, but not terribly. My dad got us lost in Santa Rosa, but that was more funny than scary, because we kept driving in the same circle for a couple of hours, and I think the last time we were lost was Troy & I in a very bad area in Las Vegas. That’s pretty much it for my whole life, or at least as many as I’m aware of, but I hate it so much that I do everything in my power to make sure it doesn’t happen anymore.

I really, really ought to be in my craft room finishing it up. I need the space in my room that now holds all of the booth inventory & I can’t move that out of there until I finish the craft room. So what am I doing instead? Sitting here on my laptop, watching the kittens play, looking at the light fixtures in here that need cleaned out & the floor that needs vacuuming, wondering how long it’s going to be until my house is a total wreck again, since I let Rhi move back in. Things are already starting to make me angry & she’s only been here a week.

I asked her to not use the new dishes we bought (we only bought them because the kids had all moved out) & she is. I asked her to stay out of my stuff & she’s in my makeup & such every day. I askedher to not take towels in the room & more than half are missing now. I asked her to do dishes twice a week & sweep once – she’s done dishes once. Who knows what else she’s been doing that I haven’t discovered yet, but I’m sure there are other things. I know I have to confront her about them, but I have to do it without causing a big scene or a drama-filled crying jag, so I’m trying to decide how to approach it before I get even more angry. Grrrr.

I’m bored right now, waiting until it’s time to leave to go to a barbecue and I hate waiting for stuff like that. I never feel like I have time to start anything else, or finish what I’m already doing, so I sit here, staring at the TV, hoping it will make the wait seem like less & it never does.

So, anyway, while I’m trying to entertain myself, I’ve been looking at cardboard displays, hoping to learn how to make some things for the booth, so that displaying our products won’t be a huge expense. I know that we will eventually need to build some containers out of wood for certain things, like our incense & such, but I’m wondering what other types of displays I can make out of a less expensive material. I get all caught up in these type of ideas & I never can seem to formulate them far enough along to actually sit down & make them happen.

Well, I guess I ought to gran Troy& go change the sheets on our bed before it’s time to sleep tonight & we still haven’t done it!

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the business website lately & wondering what I really want to do with it. I know I want to offer a good variety of Pagan goods & also some of the things that we’ve made. I just don’t know if want to keep the design that I’ve been working on & just change the colors to go along with the new autumnal theme we’re changing to, or even if I want the same layout. Do I want frames instead? Will that help with navigation at all, or cut down on my own work? Should I get listed in a website directory or just hope that I’ll be found without one? Will anyone actually go to it & buy things anyway?

See, I have a lot of questions & concerns, I don’t feel like I want to spend hours & hours building & maintaining a website that isn’t successful at all. I’ve done that before & it was totally demoralizing, I just don’t want to go through again. Any thoughts from my readers?